shuhada.hasim | Malaysian portrait photographer

A BRIDGE TO THE WORLD

Shuhada Hasim — Mon, 03 Jun 2013 18:06:41 +0000

Took me more than two months to be able to put this in writing. I was pretty much sure how this post will do to me. Just that I have to do it anyway. As a bridge to the real world after months I felt disconnected. That I was literally disconnected.

The truth is I felt all my energy being sucked. Leaving me with nothing except memories and I am searching to the core to find the strength that used to lies in me. After that morning, as hard as I tried to be strong, it was the revelation of your true self, strength and spirit. I didn’t realise what is coming until it really happened. I was preparing myself and the thought that I should be able to handle it lingered in my mind each day seeing her health condition going down the hill. But the moment it happened and after everyone gone home, left only the empty home with everything reflected.

The past few months I woke up like usual with some anxiety feeling like, “is it today?” That was the new usual for me. Made me telling her everytime I am leaving home, “wait til’ I come back”. I know she understand what I meant by that.

That Tuesday morning, I woke up to see her breathing heavily. Woke hubs & everyone in the house quickly to tell them mom’s condition. I was right there facing her, watching every seconds of it to happen slowly and so peacefully. Until her last breath at past 6 in the morning of 19th March 2013.

My mom, fought the breast cancer stage four for two odd years. She went through 11 times of chemotherapy including one last oral chemo. That was when she finally throw up for the very first time due to the aggressive treatment. She went through 2 times radiotherapy and gave up cause of the pain. For over 20 years, she was never being diagnosed with cancer but when it finally came, it was the final stage with the massive tumor that only God knows the pain. In some situations I was clueless, until at one point I decided to seek for a counselling that I most needed. Just because I was not sure how to deal with her emotions.

Being so close and loving her like never before, thought me so much. Let alone I started to see life in a different perspective. It is indeed a long discovery process, I am still processing. It is tough, never easy but one thing for sure is I have to move on. Mom was indeed really strong & independent women that I ever know. Whom hardly to show her emotions but when she really did, you know that must be the tough one for her. For what she went through all her life, she is the most beautiful queen of my heart.

She left us after 2 weeks of my solo photography exhibition started and when it has not even end yet. I had 2 extreme things happened in my life at one time and I must say left me with feeling nothing but empty.

I hope this post reached to as much people as possible, who was around me and my family, who keep on praying for us regardless of their religion are, who didn’t give up on me for my volatile emotions going through the hard times. You know who you are and my huge gratitude for all the good things & good people around me and my family. May her strength and good heart to keep growing in me and everyone who know her and to inspire me for whatever the good things to come. InShaAllah.

I miss her so much everyday. Al-Fatihah.

Filed under: A NOTE FROM SHUHADA, PHOTOGRAPHY Tagged: beauty, breast cancer, personal, women

SEEK IN THEIR STORIES AN INSPIRATION

Shuhada Hasim — Tue, 12 Mar 2013 06:18:22 +0000

The 9 new portraits specially photograph for this exhibition together with my 6 older collection. 15 of them now hanged on the wall in Alliance Francaise until 22nd March 2013 for the exhibition in conjunction with an International Women’s Day 2013. They shared their stories with us, spare your time to visit & read them.

SHUE FUKUMOTO & MAI UDAGAWA

MAYA KHURANA

THE BREAST CANCER SURVIVORS

SEPIDEH

MAZA & NAZA

RHONDA WILSON-DIKOKO

KATRINE KHURANA

LANA MOHAMMAD

MARIE SYDONIE

ROJO MATHEWS

SALSABEL

SHAMINE SANUSI

NOOR AISHAH

FIZA RINI

SYLVIE COEVOET

Filed under: PHOTOGRAPHY Tagged: beauty, International Women's Day, PHOTOGRAPHY EXHIBITION, portrait photographer, portraits, real people, women

BALANCING TWO SIDES OF GOLF BALLS

Shuhada Hasim — Tue, 05 Mar 2013 03:30:49 +0000

I have no words to describe. Solo exhibition is my dream for a long time since I know photography. When everything seems in place, my great commitment goes to my mother health condition. Each day, she seems like going down the hill. We just cannot stop praying. Allah know best, that we as His servant has no idea what is coming. At the same time this weekend, a concurrent display of my work with other amazing women photographers again in conjunction with an International Women’s Day. How can I not be thankful? For the life lessons I am picking every single day. For the appreciation of my work to be shared with the public so I can get the message I have in me via my work to spread around. Check out the|refinery on their Facebook here.

Yesterday, I sat with a French journalist for an interview to be featured in a French online newspaper, Le Petit Journal Kuala Lumpur telling stories about my work for the solo exhibition this Friday. We both sit at the coffee shop, sharing each other stories as a daughter & son of a breast cancer patients. I was so moved & it warmed my heart. I will need a translator to read me the content once they are out as I don’t understand French!

Did you read the Sunday article in the Sunday Times? My beautiful makeup artist was on the cover of Life & Times! Read the article by Aneeta Sundararaj here!

Without a single word yet I come out for my speech, I will see you all this Friday!

Filed under: A NOTE FROM SHUHADA, LIFE BEHIND THE LENS, PHOTOGRAPHY Tagged: beauty, portrait photographer, shuhada hasim, women

THE TRUTH OF THE BEAUTIFUL TRUTH

Shuhada Hasim — Wed, 27 Feb 2013 18:24:41 +0000

Here it is lovers! About one week left and I have received the hard copy of the invitation cards today from the host. This is my official announcement about my solo exhibition titled The Beautiful Truth. The details below and also here.

In conjunction with the International Women’s Day

Date: 8th March 2013

Photography Exhibition: The Beautiful Truth

Location: Alliance Française de Kuala Lumpur, 15 Lorong Gurney, 54100 Kuala Lumpur

Time: 7.30pm

You can see the invitation card below for your to save the date & join the fun on the 8th March. It’s open to public & FREE admission!

I am sure some of you came across and a lot may not notice, an article came out in The Star on February 19 covering about the exhibition & myself. Check them out below & the link here. more to come from another leading newspaper very soon!

Some other important details about the exhibition & people behind the scene.

Makeup sponsor: Bobbi Brown Malaysia

Print sponsor: Canon Marketing (M) Sdn Bhd

Studio: Neurmaya Photography | http://neurmaya.com/

Backdrop & styling: Noor Mazidah from Pretty Things | https://www.facebook.com/the.prettythings

Hairstylist: Jaja Radzwan from Mirror Mirror Hair & Makeup Salon | https://www.facebook.com/MirrorMirrorKualaLumpur

Wardrobe: Wan Sherliza from Girlies Barn | https://www.facebook.com/GirliesBarn

Jewellery: Sandrine Baudeau from Thais et Theo Jewellery Designs | http://www.thaisettheo.com/

My gratitude is beyond words.

Filed under: A NOTE FROM SHUHADA, LIFE BEHIND THE LENS, PHOTOGRAPHY Tagged: beauty, personal, photography as a lifestyle, PHOTOGRAPHY EXHIBITION, portrait photographer, real people, shuhada hasim, women

CRAPS NEED TO BE CUT!

Shuhada Hasim — Wed, 20 Feb 2013 04:45:10 +0000

Let me be honest, with mom in the hospital & her condition is going down the hill, I am praying. Begging for the strength for me to go through this unexpected situations (no human being want to expect this). The sadness can easily hit me at any time, no mercy. But I have my faith, believes & amazingly beautiful soul of people around me. Past one week I was a little down, with the exhibition date is around the corner, (to date I have only 16 days before the show). I even wrote to some people how I felt. I am trying any possible ways or whatever it takes to hold on. When the article came out in The Star yesterday, I received so many text messages, all saying congratulations & being proud of me! How can I not being so grateful for that? The things that money can’t buy! Until I received a text message from my aunty congratulating me & asking of my mom’s condition. I can’t hold on, burst into tears alone in the shower! I felt so alone! Today, I woke up & searching back again for some inspirations with nothing to expect. I have been telling hubby that I am feeling different from before, I am happy but the excitement is not the same like my first group exhibition 2 years ago. I have some reference that I always listen/watch them speaking about how to live our life happily, full with positive energy & believe in ourselves. These people are so full with positive energy! One of the vlog that I came across this morning was saying about letting go & receiving the unexpected which is a surprise! Watch the video & I hope you too will understand & getting what I am getting.

Check the article link here for your reading, I think it was beautifully written by Shalini (who is sweet like sugar!)

Love, love & full of love! Cut the crap & letting go!

Filed under: A NOTE FROM SHUHADA, PHOTOGRAPHY Tagged: personal, PHOTOGRAPHY EXHIBITION, shuhada hasim, women